The Plan

Ok. Post two within like an hour, I'm sorry. BUT I need to plan. I like organizing, I like lists, so here goes:

CW after binging all weekend…..168.2

[[Disgusting. Fatass. Pig. Weak. Me.]]

GW:135.

UGW: 120.

Deadline for GW: June 15 [[52 days…7 weeks, sooo that's 4-5 pounds a week. shiiit.]]

NON-NEGOTIABLE—140 by June 15 [[less than 4 a week.]]

Plan:

*Kick-start with a 3 day fast—water, tea, coffee, diet coke, broth. ONLY.

*Then less that 400 a day. Max EVER is 1000. And that's pretty damn high.

*Always fast completely at least two days of the week.

**DON'T BINGE ON WEEKENDS!#@$%#Q@@!#$ Can't stress this one enough!

I also need to work out more. Especially running. No excuses. Although I fear people will see my obesity if I run outside…So I'll be running on the tredmill until I'm under 150. Also, I want to start one of those ab circuits that are in like Self or cosmo or whatever. I feel like that'd be effective.

Confession: On a pretty consistent basis, I think that people are looking at me in disgust over the fat on my body. I'm always aware of it. And why wouldn't they? I think the same thing.

Anyways…Night lovely anas. Let this week be lighter than the last

—A