Day 13—"healthy or not?"

I feel like anyone looking at these blogs are definitely not healthy. Regardless of how successful they are at not eating, the mental aspect of wanting to starve yourself to reach that forever-unattainable goal isn't a normal way to think. Everyday, I start my day with a plan to not eat, and even though I usually fall while I'm at work, I still typically don't eat a meal by myself, and if I do its under 250 calories. That's a "big meal" when I'm alone. That's if I don't binge (which I will say hasn't happened in a while. I've learned that if you feel a binge coming on, eat SOMETHING filling, like soup and a sandwich because you can still control that and keep it at least below 300 but they keep you eating for a while!). But binging is also unhealthy, just at the opposite extreme.

Anyways, that's my view on the matter. I've been doing alright this week. I have two parties involving food, a lunch and dinner party, and some people from work really want to "grab a bite to eat" before I have to go to my dinner party. Ugh. Why do so many social events surround food? Probably because food is comforting to most people. But to us it puts us in hell.

Keep strong!

—A